If you follow my daughter’s blog, you’ll know that we spent last Thursday night at a Jason Gray concert, where we had a blessed, memory-making time.
Jason drew the audience in immediately with his self-deprecating manner, shy smile, wry sense of humor, and slight stutter, which vanished when he performed. In between songs, he spoke about the life experiences that led him to write particular lyrics, and he turned those times of testimony into times of praise to God, and moments of reflection for his audience.
As he spoke about his stutter, he posed these questions: “What if we looked at our deficiencies and said that God can use us because of them, and not in spite of them? What if we stopped beating ourselves up about our faults, or the thing about our personality that we like the least, and ask ourselves how God can use it for his glory?”
That thought stopped me in my tracks, because I definitely fall into the “in spite of” category. I have often wished that I were more stoic and disciplined like my husband, or as sweet and lovable as my dear friend Natalie. I have wished that I were not as introverted or as much of a perfectionist.
But when Jason posed that thought, something inside me awakened in response to this new way of thinking.
God created each of us exactly as he wished us to be, for the roles he wished us to fulfill. Perhaps I need to stop fighting who I am and rest assured that I am, in that way, who he intended me to be.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I should stop fighting against my sin nature.
And he said to them all, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me. – Luke 9:23
But I should stop comparing myself to others.
Instead, I should recognize that God cut the particular facets of the rough gem that I am, so that I could reflect his light in just the right way.
Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them. – Psalm 139:16
So many characters in the Bible were given flaws that allowed them to succeed in their life’s mission. As a brilliant scholar and orator, the Apostle Paul perhaps needed his unnamed thorn in the flesh to keep him humble, ever turning to the Lord for grace and strength.
Because of his poor speech, Moses needed his brother to speak for him.
With his humble background and lack of military experience, Gideon needed God to provide his battle plan.
As a harlot and a Gentile, Rahab needed great faith to create a new life for herself. In the end, she became an ancestor of Christ.
What have you wished you could change about yourself? Can you see how God could use it for his glory?